No Grace Even in Grief

Today was the first time in a bit that I broke down. I feel lonely without Josh and he feels the furthest away than he ever has. I celebrated our second wedding anniversary alone yesterday. I took a woman’s pistol class with Seer observing. I always thought it would be Josh that would teach me. I’m on my own to defend our family now.

My girls have been exposed to unkind behavior that I’m not sure how to explain or help them with. Josh would have known how to handle it. How can so much be taken but you still don’t get the benefit of the doubt? A husband and father ripped from our lives but we aren’t protected from anything else bad happening. People can still mistreat us as even though this is the hardest thing the 5 of us will ever go through. There is no grace in grief I suppose. In the end not everyone cares and that’s when you find out who loves you.

I’m grateful for my children and my family. We are also incredibly fortunate to have Josh’s family in our corner. Not everyone is so lucky. 💕

I have a few more posts written and scheduled. I’m guessing an end is coming soon. How much can you take from a grieving woman. It’s been good for me to express my otherwise quiet self. Thank you for listening.